procrastination post

this is a mandatory part of exam preparation.
unnecessary blog post with no proper content.

I have a 500ml can of "Mother"
U might ask:
"What is "Mother"?"
"Why is this boy so rude to the person who carried him in her womb for 9 months? Is it the effect of studying Australia?"
"Has he forgotten his roots? Sei Fan Kuat Chai!"


Mother, is "the mother of all energy kicks"
On the can, it notes "WARNING, Heaps of energy"

and

"A Mother of A Taurine, Caffeine & Guarana Hit"

And also:
So now when a mate turns up with a wussy-sized can, you can raise your MOTHER up and proudly say "did yours come with a man bag".

plus:
"BEST DRUNK FREEZE YOUR NUTS OFF COLD"

lastly:
"WARNING! High caffeine content... OK, we know that's why you're drinking it but our lame legal guys made us warn you not to feed this to kids, up the duff women or the weak who just can't tolerate it"


Ok, on the can.. those notes are all IN CAPS.. but i DIDNT WANT TO HURT YOUR EYES.

With all that talk about Mothers, manhood, gay man bags and "A Mother of ...hits", there should be NO DOUBT whatsoever in your mind the reason i bought this gigantic can of energy:

Yes!

Because it was the cheapest.

in terms of caffeine & taurine content as well as volume, compared to redbull and V.

way way cheaper.
like 1/2 the price.

Mothers always knows best. *hugs*


but this is an old can. Mine says HEAPS OF ENERGY in place of "Taste nothing like the old one"

do not be surprised.. if its in your own home.

inadequacy. failure.
compounded by horrific news from home.
this is messed up. I cant imagine how it feels. I am angry, yet i know that any decisions made based on such emotions might not have the best of outcome, even for him.
its rare that i feel like just shouting. Is this some kind of dream? or a movie? what the hell man.. these things only happen to other people..
the world's harsh reality slowly unravels its ugly dark side.. the more it reveals itself, the more i should hide in the light.
but not everyone has the privilege to hide in the light, especially if they dont know Him who is its source.

what can be said at this point in time? what can be done?
time. grace. forgiveness. only a miracle can solve this- the undoing of a miracle.
what is the word to describe the opposite of a miracle anyway?

the world is dark place. even in your own home.
It even more clearly shows why Jesus HAD to come and die for our sins. We humans are HOPELESS.. H O P E - F R E A K I N G - L E S S.
uncommon for people to think that... until it hits them.

How can i put this. If i did not know God, my life would be meaningless.. It couldve been "fun" if i were to indulge in worldly things.. but I know of a better life. In fact i can guarantee its a better life. If ure my bros n sis in Christ, u know this is true.
I can think of any other way to live but following Christ according to His word.


current mood: angry, worries, moodless and disappointed. yet somewhat thankful.

OAISH:FOI YP#@R(* !@(* YERQIW &RWYIUADSKJ RAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

COMMMONNNNNN U WIMP!

step 1 of self motivation : insult yourself (but dont really mean it)

step 2- coming soon

i should sit in a corner..

.... to reflect and repent.. i ate 4 meals out... IN A ROW!
friday dinner, sat lunch (woke up about 11ish), sat dinner, sunday breakfast (at 10am)...
That has never happened in my entire life.. also i went to 3 new food places... although i didnt eat icecream at "Sugarplum".. the place sounds queer right? lol.. felt abit segan coz i tried 1 flavour but didnt buy anything in the end.. other friends bought tho... taking the hit for the group..
i ended up buying a tub of icecream and going back 2 eat... its cheaper that way.. and more to eat..

Ya know, this year ive been pretty liberal wiht my spending.. too liberal infact.. Last year was living quite like a pauper.. considering i wasnt like broke or anything.. then this year started off well too! i was saving up n all... aiming to save up enough to sorta fund my car-buying..
but then it slowly went down hill starting last weekend.. and this weekend with all the food.

kept "playing" and not studying.. o mann... but it was fun la.. enjoyed it..
and i ate like the most amazing breakfast crumpets... supermega awesome!! expensive.. BUT AWESOMe nonetheless.

ok between now and the sentence above, a gap of 3 hours filled with washing of toilets, retrival of guitar and other misc stuff occured. i have no idea what i wanted to blog about. and i did better than i expected for exams! thank God =) strange isnt it... i worked much less than i did for the prev course too... but this course, must. work. harder!

peace out, A town.

the truth & hypocrites

Does anyone care about the truth? or is everyone happy as long as its widely agreed?

Anything against the widely agreed view is wrong, until proven right. Then comes a epiphany of some sort.Suddenly everything changes. what was once right, the "fact", the "truth", is now the ultimate wrong and the once wrong is now the resounding "truth",


until proven wrong.


im gonna use a old ass used-to-death illustration:
Galileo was laughed at when he said the world was a sphere, that it wasnt flat, that i was indeed circling the sun and not the middle of the solar system.
This seems funny now but back in those days, those were hold as TRUE FACTS. the truth.

Do u see any african american slaves in the US now? U say its despicable NOW. but that wasnt the case in the 17th century.

Relativity.

Now, does anyone still care about the truth?

If you believe there are no absolutes, and everything is changing, morality, life, standards, then by default, u dont care about the truth, because the truth does not matter.
Of the flipside, u dont believe or care about the truth, because deep down, u dont believe in absolutes, u dont believe in a higher creator being, God.

If u care about the truth, and u disagree with relativity, u believe that an evolving standard of morality will come back to bite us (as it already have, checkout the divorce rates). thats great.
What do u believe in? Why do u disagree with what the world is agreeing? Are u a Christian?**Or are you a hypocrite?

Im too sleepy to continue, but i promise you this- everyone is a hypocrite one way or another. Its comes from so many angles, whether ure christian or not, if you search for it, and reflect- u will find that hint of hypocrisy in your life. i was one, still am, but im working on it..


to be cont..



Nobody believes in nothing. Dont be arrogant.



** Christians are to accept and strive for nothing less than God's standards- which is absolute.
1 John 2
Do Not Love the World
¹⁵Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. ¹⁶For everything in the world—the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does—comes not from the Father but from the world. ¹⁷The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever.

bi polar bear polar

I need to grow up. I need to grow up fast.
I need to grow up. I need to grow up strong.
I need to grow up. I need maturity.
I need to grow in Christ.

I feel like an infant, a child at most. I ask if i could play with the up there with the big boys.
the answer was no.

I need to focus. FOCUS. how? i need discipline. initiative. FoCUs!
I need resolutions, contemplations?, determination.
reflection. but those require time! i need time! but time is limit. So i need discipline and focus.
I need priorities. no. i need to prioritize. and then discipline and focus.

I need to wrap my mind around what is worth hoping for and then act accordingly. That hope is in Christ Jesus, and the last day. For what greater hope is there than that? Medicine? Family? Happy "fulfilling" life? Surely not. But how.. grasping and action is intertwined with fear and rebellion.

And so, I need to get it together. GET IT TOGETHER MATE! Get yourself together!

Jesus Christ, I think about Your sacrifice, You became nothing, poured out to death. Many times I´ve wondered at your gift of life, and I´m in that place once again.



Exams. What eternal purpose have thee? None.
fail lor.

but fail exam-->lose scholarship-->deported back to msia-->away from faithful biblical teaching-->no degree --> sweep floor in msia--> depression--> cry

fail exam = cry.


cry---> eat laksa ---> temporary fulfillment --> poor --> cry


me a river

Church Camp

Hey guys, its easter break for a week over here in sydney. I just came back from my church camp of 4 days. It was a good camp. The topic "Sexuality". I went without much expectations, thinking id prob be hearing all the same BGR stuff ive been listening to for the past 1 year-ish. True; that many things were similar. Some jokes were identical, illustrations were repeated. but it doesnt hurt to get reminded of things. In fact, its good. Reinforcement never makes something weaker right? Ive heard that Christ died on the cross, taking my sins upon him and paying the punishment for it, that is death- therefore, reconciling me to God. And this Jesus ressurected on the 3rd Day to rule over the world and will one day return to judge. The Easter message. Not the easter bunny chocolate egg one. The real easter message. Ive heard it so so so so so so so many times. At 1st, there came a point in life that it was just a phrase to me... something to be thankful for, but did not hold so much weight nor implication. But the more knowledge i have of it, the larger its implications for my life were. So much so that now, even hearing it for the 1890239012th time, it is still able to convict me, and blow me away. Why? I dont think it is because i am naive, nor is it because i am brought up this way,(as i said in the past, it was just but a phrase to me). I believe that its because its true. and I am thankful that God-willing, I have been able to understand and accept it as the truth. for without God, i would not be able to know that it is truth. How can i be absolutely sure it is true? i cannot convince you but I wish for you to find out for yourself-if it is indeed any of ur curiosity. In a sense, u get your chance to prove me wrong, but at the risk of proving your ownself wrong.

1 Cor 1:18-25
¹⁸For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God. ¹⁹For it is written:
"I will destroy the wisdom of the wise;
the intelligence of the intelligent I will frustrate."^c]">[c]

²⁰Where is the wise man? Where is the scholar? Where is the philosopher of this age? Has not God made foolish the wisdom of the world? ²¹For since, in the wisdom of God, the world through its wisdom did not know him, God was pleased through the foolishness of what was preached to save those who believe. ²²Jews demand miraculous signs and Greeks look for wisdom, ²³but we preach Christ crucified: a stumbling block to Jews and foolishness to Gentiles, ²⁴but to those whom God has called, both Jews and Greeks, Christ the power of God and the wisdom of God. ²⁵For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength.

well this is hardly what i meant by challenging camp topic. It discussed what the bible had to say about dating, marraige and singlehood. why certain things work in marraige and some dont. what is recommended. what is important. Will write it later. as of now, im sick. i wanna rest

Its easter week. and so shall my blog be fitting for such a week.

Happy Easter! even if it means nothing but yummy choc eggs and bunny to you...blwekkk :p