do not be surprised.. if its in your own home.

inadequacy. failure.
compounded by horrific news from home.
this is messed up. I cant imagine how it feels. I am angry, yet i know that any decisions made based on such emotions might not have the best of outcome, even for him.
its rare that i feel like just shouting. Is this some kind of dream? or a movie? what the hell man.. these things only happen to other people..
the world's harsh reality slowly unravels its ugly dark side.. the more it reveals itself, the more i should hide in the light.
but not everyone has the privilege to hide in the light, especially if they dont know Him who is its source.

what can be said at this point in time? what can be done?
time. grace. forgiveness. only a miracle can solve this- the undoing of a miracle.
what is the word to describe the opposite of a miracle anyway?

the world is dark place. even in your own home.
It even more clearly shows why Jesus HAD to come and die for our sins. We humans are HOPELESS.. H O P E - F R E A K I N G - L E S S.
uncommon for people to think that... until it hits them.

How can i put this. If i did not know God, my life would be meaningless.. It couldve been "fun" if i were to indulge in worldly things.. but I know of a better life. In fact i can guarantee its a better life. If ure my bros n sis in Christ, u know this is true.
I can think of any other way to live but following Christ according to His word.


current mood: angry, worries, moodless and disappointed. yet somewhat thankful.

OAISH:FOI YP#@R(* !@(* YERQIW &RWYIUADSKJ RAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!