the genting experience

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Its been more than 2 weeks since A2 was officially over... What do all the students now have is a lot of free time.. Im sure many have been waiting for this darn holiday.. i know i have.. ive been "planning" this holiday since SPM.. i told myself "if i start in January u got more than 6 months holiday!!".. yea so i traded of starting in June for a later n longer holiday..
i am a terrible time waster.. i did nearly NOTHING productive.. ive been avoiding doing anything of use n substance.. its bad. sighh.. i planned to do so many things.. but planning n executing them are 2 whole different things..
on a side note i realised due to the holidays- ppls blog have grown somewhat.. longer n more tedious to read.. haha..
ill start with Genting trip: here goes.
Started bad- we missed the bus.. u dont know how pissed i was.. hungry n pissed..
i woke up early.. rushed ppl.. called ppl.. i really thank the people who came early but apologize that u had to fork out an extra 17.40 to travel up.. i know its a lot of money.. sighh.. in this holiday i blew SO MUCH MONEY its not even funny.. i mean .. i cant even describe it.. well, i saw it coming tho..
going up genting.. even small things annoyed me.. yes.. i was very easily agitated at that time..
after checking in- the rest of the day was ok- 1 of the room stank n the other was clean.. clearly the inconsiderate gurls wanted to clean room... hahah ..jk.. we ate lunch after that. i was freakinnn famished.. only to find out KFC was so damn expensive there.. actually i already knew but just the sight of that 17.40 on the dinner plate was quite shocking.. not just me.. 1st time i see Sing Huay say "shit!" when he saw the price.. darn funny la!.. haha.. he stilll bought it tho.. i went with the 2 piece.. still expensive..oh well- its a holiday~
Next we wanted to go to the park.. note that outside was very VERY misty.. everybody kept disappearing to go toilet.. we couldnt even gather em to get the wristband for the themepark.. grrr... not too long after we entered the park.. it started to drizzle n most rides were closed.. so we find whatever we could.. the swinger (the chair that goes round n round).. was super funnny.. 1 of the funniest rides ever.. i cant describe the feeling - worried, freezing, laughing, ...cold.. basically my brain was quite spaz.. it started to rain quite heavy.. but once it started to "swing" i was all wet..i switched my "stance" from opening my arms wide to protecting my face.. giant raindrops smashing ur face aint fun.. laughed like hell tho.. all the time thinking of 2 things:
- i only have this pants
- what the hell are we doing here in the rain..
oh well.. went to the gents to dry myself under the hand dryer till a line forming forced me to move aside..
rest of the day spent hanging around the park.. i really wanted to ride the solero shot/space shot again.. or the corkscrew but it was closed.. what a pity.. the 2 highlights of the park.. sighh..
those that didnt go - U WUSS! its like going to KFC n eating fish burger.. erghh..
im sure those who went enjoyed the feeling of weightlessness... or of puking out their intestines.. =)
dinner included birthday. i had a budget meal. i just realised that WE DIDNT TREAT THE BIRTHDAY BABIES.. i dont know why but we shudve.. oh well.. we cut cake n sang.. i made sure i shouted their names loud enuff.. heh.. nobodies face was destroyed with cream tho..
night was filled with arcade n NO CLUBBING.. awww... i was quite angry so arcade was fine.. then we walked allot.. now id like to take this opportunity to say nirmal, u have a hide of a yak.. i have no idea how u stand the cold but ure crazy.. its a compliment.. hehheh.. :p
night ended with taboo, drunken talking n terrible sleep (sry guys)..
ps- ben n jak jak was like 1.5 cm apart.. face 2 face.. darn funny.. if only i had camera..
ok lazy already.. ended with us just waiting for the bus to come.. i got quite upset over something... angry furious thoughts kicked in.. but quickily i brushed the aside.. n yes- the 2 of them did cry.. i didnt lie but i didnt wanna embarrass them at that time either.. how touching.. im missing all their crazy company already.. i wonder how we could stay intouch..
slept all the way home..

how do people know if ure actually angry or sad if u dont say or show it?
how many people have actually seen me lash out? not many.
is it patience? the power to suppress feelings?
how many have taken advantage of this? enough to make one angry.
is it a good thing-to suppress. yes.
"it is not what u say but what u do that defines u." sighh.. just with that n i feel like trash.

the power of words

Today i learnt NOTHING about the power of words.. however, i did learn something- im starting to miss college..no not the stupid building (which btw is nice)... the friends.. i was never REAL close to anyone in college.. like "real tight".. that is usually how i am.. even in high school i always kept people at a certain distance.. i was only close to 1 person, (well... 2..) who later switched school n i was quite sad.. its stupid.. a guy who misses another guys company is labeled gay.. a gurl that misses another gurlfriend is labeled "good friends".. anyway..as i was saying - my nature-to NOT get close.. because when someone knows too much about it.. it makes u vulnerable.. and somehow having a gf kinda fulfills that void of closeness that all people, whether subtly or not,(i assume) desires.. u might deny it saying " I DONT NEED ANYBODY.. INDEPENDANTT N STRONGG".. but reality is people need people.. (n also God.. :p ).. this bad habit i have is actually very protective.. this way i never get "hurt.." cept by of coz... well.. her.. but its ok.

i read cassie's blog once awhile i often feel the urge to reply.. but i end up not posting. Because i dont really want other people to see what i wrote. thats why blogging is NOT my cup of tea. anonymous blogging however might be fun.. but then who the heck would read ur blog? unless u fill it with pictures of "hot chics" n type in "hot, gurl, sex" in ur post so the 10982371098273019283 ppl searching for pron would actually click on ur blog n be disappointed that there is hardly anything arousing in it. but scam 1 person once n u get 10982371098273019283 amount of hits.. yes, u might be thinking "hey thats more hits than there are people in this world".. well whatever einstein, my exams are over.. my brain is resting.

yerpp.. deviation, sidetracking, n nonsense is my specialty. at 3.30am, its as good as me blogging when im drunk. i think ill "tembak" some people since nobody ever reads this blog (cept the machine) n i never really advertise or tell anyone bout it so it'll pretty much be kept in the dark for....ever.. hehe.. no harm i suppose.. (maybe if i wrote in points i would be more focused... or maybe if i were more awake)
- gurls like to complain about how terrible guys are
- those are usually the ones that love/d guys.. oh what hypocritical critters u are..
- or pms n they just think everyone/thing, living or not, is terrible...
- oh yes thats right- i use pms against u.
- i need to shop for shoes n i have no money.. dad doesnt wanna give me allowance.
- after my exams, immediately i was listed a list of things i had to do before this weekend.. sucks..
- i have to help my parents teach cause dad fired a teacher (which happens to be my uncle).. n my dad said "ill pay u" (which most prob is a semi-lie. which means he will pay if u bug him to n said "but u SAID u WOULD") its the perfect plan, i would never take money from my parents.. after all they did feed me, bring me up, give me a roof 2 live under, n about to sponsor me to study medicine WHICH IS FREAKING DAMN BLOODY EXPENSIVE... to take their money would be... a crime in itself... sighh..
- to the machine: stop thinking u are not good enough or ill kick u in the nuts. guys are asses by nature.. some excel more than others earning the title jerk(ass).

im beginning to think that my life is not eventful enough to be blogged about..unless u wanna read " i applied to 2 universities today, went n "make" bank draft, going to 2 banks n figured out that Maybank>RHB.. i thought i lost my handphone n make my heart pump frantically.. came home.. had to go church for meeting.. felt like a business plan.. went mamak ate roti canai n teh tarik.. chit chat.. went home.. played comp.. chatted... " no drama, action, death, juiciness, comdey- just mundane normal LIFE... awwww.. how disappointing..

i realise i have nothing 2 wear this saturday... stupid ball.. i thought it was a grad WITHOUT dinner all the while.. sighhs.. cassie help me advertise my blog by linking it to urs with the title "thebestdamnthingueverclicked"... sure they'll call u liar.. sure they'll hunt u down.. but thats what friendship is all about.. sacrifices... i think my next post will be called "lies".. oh so many ideas, so little time.. i am about to execute my biggest lie.. i have not finished my elaborate plans but it actually kills the soul when u do.. lying is addictive.. the more u lie.. the more u will be immune to the guilt n u WILL lie more.. even for shit u dont need to lie about..

ah well.. here it is, something title-related: im sure u know the power of words- to bless,to condemn, to discourage or encourage, to communicate - ur love, hurt, anger. to show off.. ur calm- ur cool, to rub in other peoples faces ur A in GP.. grrr.. brag,compliment n of cause kill... "killing me softly with his wordss.. killing me softlyyy .. with hissss wordss.." ... ahh how it sucks to be killed by words.. n how would words kill u if they mean nothing to u? ahh.. now u see why i "defend" myself..
"sticks n stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me.."
thats one cold heart wuss..
sigh...*zzzzzz*