I feel my insides churning, both mind and body exhausted. this uncomfortable feeling is liken to one of break ups... The unsettling feeling of knowing its over, before its over. Its your mind preemptively preparing you for some things.

I cant help but feel like a selfish comfort worshiping person. Its funny how I can make a decision that is in the distant future which will seemingly be even more difficult than this... but then at this, ARGH. Am I deluded?

Its so much easier just not to be put in this position in the 1st place. And from the get go, i never felt I was up for it... but my prideful self also thought "im not that bad lah.. can make it"


WTH MANNNNNNNNNNNN! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.. frustrated with the situation..

ignorance IS bliss, but ignorance is the suppression of truth.