i have u now!

At last im back from my trip.. only a 3 day trip. Mon - Wed but too lazy to blog.. My bus trip was not tiring at all.. sure beats the LOUSY TRAIN... only 5 hours.. n so comfy. i slept allot.. brought my MP3 player but it was spoilt .. Slept for about 3 hours total, waking up every hour or so.. was sms-ing the times i was awake n forgot that i crossed the border..
ok note to everyone that goes spore, SWITCH OF UR PHONE!!! i went into spore thinking "ok i have RM25.. that shud be enough" 1 sms back to malaysia is RM2, smsing my friend in Spore is RM2, ppl calling me from anywhere, ill be charged roaming fees.. upon reaching spore.. my credit has droped to RM16.. and dont ask me how or why but it continue to decrease!!! i didnt even sms anyone.. n only pick up calls when necessary.. erghh anyway came back from spore with RM0.47.. depressing :(
anyway, the trip was not a relaxing one. i brought sleeping bag coz i was staying with my friend who only has 1 bed so i slept on the floor. save on lodging.. heh.. oh in singapore,while still on the bus i saw a shop called "Greatly Lighting ___" (the ___ being Sdn Bhd only in spore terms) hmmmmm.... anyway, bus dropped me at Novena sq. Met my friend there n since i didnt have lunch OR breakfast, bought a moss burger. (but i bought a bun prior to that tho..on the bus.. and ate free waffle given by bus service.. tasted disgusting but hunger prevails)
i shall not bore u with details.
Day 1 (carrying baggage throughout whole journey)
-went to Sim Lin, low yatt of Spore n met my friends friend to scout for Webcam to purchase for Ngee Ann Polytech. (darn funny)
-Search for guitar. Bus n walk
-Met bro's friend who passed me money in Sing Dollar to pay for guitar. Suppose to meet guitarist friend but he wasnt free. Met the drummer of the band instead- not much help.
-Ate food court, went home. went "mamak" eat Chinese food.

Day 2
- woke up late- guitar shoping the whole day.. walk until leg pain.
- COULDNT FIND THE GUITAR BRAND THAT I WANTED. and also couldnt test out guitars that i wanted coz OUT OF STOCK.. sighh.. where are the taylors..sighhhhh..
-bought in the end at bout 8+pm.. the salesperson sensed my urgency to own a guitar henced chopped my ....... err.. i mean didnt give me discount or freebie. damn old man.
-my heart ached. ive never spent so much money in my entire life.
-i was depressed for awhile
-witness accident.. stopped to watch.
-watched harry potter- new cathay cinema- really big. bigger n nicer than One Utama's GSC. $7 <-- ripoff.. went home at 1. Day 3 -went to Ngee Ann Polytechic. They have 4 canteens and a crazy crazy library. its 1928312098309 times better than sunway university college's library. Its SOOOOO nice.. n very cool. i mean.. it even has CSI, Smallville, simpsons, ranma 1/2,cartoons, lots n lots of board games, comics-xmen,marvel stuff, Tintin, Farside gallery,dilbert, garfield, EVERYTHING.. n lots n lots n lots n lots of books... all the latest magazines.. sighh.. makes our national library look like crap.
-went home

Misc:
-spore ppl walk faster than u. yes they do.
-pedestrians ARE the king of the roads. u can just stand there n people wont honk u.(given its a zebra crossing) -Bus services are crazily efficient.
-Their traffic lights are crazy.. 2 directions can turn green at 1 time so the one turning must wait for the cars going straight even tho their side is green. -Relatively hotter prettier gurls visible when i was there. Maybe its luck...
-tap water made my stomach ache,man recycle shit water sure tasted different.. maybe its psychological.

Malaysia VS Spore- debatable. i think id rather stay in spore if i was born there but since i grew up here kinda attached to Malaysia. I mean, recycled shit water?! common... messed up...

ps- if i had a camera of sum sort id show u my guitar but i dont :\ its a takamine- coldplay uses taka.. i think :D

ive always been waiting for u.... im coming k?

yea... freakin long since i posted anything.. heh.. im going down to spore tmrw.. bus at 9 from bangsar.. gotta wake up at 6 coz prob jam all the way to Kelana LRT.. havent packed n its already 3am... still doing my research to buy my long awaited guitar.. ive been playing for like.. 4 years plus n i only own a RM250 chiplak santa fe or.. santa monica? some cheapo acoustic guitar which i dropped so many times i cant tune the G string (dont think anything funny) anymore.. so all strings are tune to the highest that G string can go.. oh well.. ive borrowed my friends acoustic electric for.... 3 years +.. so pai seh.. segan... he doesnt play guitar but he's a freakin kam siap (stingy) fellow so he ask me back for it.. i returned it.. then i took it back after 2 weeks! mwahahahha .. (there are reasons i do these things.. i honestly wanted to return it to him) .. oh well.. im off to my guitar shopping trip down in Spore.. kinda scared as i know NOTHING of buying a guitar.. NOTHING.. luckily i have a couple of guitar savvy ppl assisting me there.. yeah~ friends of friends.. staying at friends apartment so bringing sleeping bag (yes no bed-blanket-pillow etc).. but that means lodging cost = $0.. aka MORE MONEY FOR GUITAR~... ive been promised this guitar since... form 3 PMR prize, form 3 birthday, form 4 birthday, form 4 exams, form 5 bday, form 5 SPM results, AS results.. ( on my birthday 2006, i said "please dont say guitar.. u nvr buy for me since ever.. *long conversation*.." ended up with the whole family sharing for a RM15 folder which i said "eh quite nice.. n walked away from it when buying stationary with dad"... the card that came with it cost RM18 from halmark.. total of 33 bucks from 5 people.. 4 adults -3 of which are working.. and my niece who at that time was about 2 years old.. CHEAPO!.... (its in my blood people... YES WHEN DIVIDE THE BILL MUST COUNT TAX... =p) ahhh... guitarr guitarrr cant wait to hold u in my arms n not drop u or hit u against the wall.. i promise not to treat u like how i treat my RM250 guitar nor my friends guitar- of which i freely toss around after playing n leaning it dangerously steep against the wall hoping no gust of wind will send it crashing down n chipping the nice smooth finishing... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. i hope i dont make a stupid buy n end up regretting.. this will be the most expensive purchase i make by my own... (car, piano. not my choice).. if i come back depressed.. u will know i have wasted lotsa hard earned money n plunge into depression.. wuuuu..(cries of sorrow) T-T... if i had a camera id take a picture of my excited face so u can look at it n go "wow.. what a dumbass.." heh.. c ya in 3 days.. (or wheni feel like blogging) *goes to pack*

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the genting experience

now playing: Minutes to midnight
Its been more than 2 weeks since A2 was officially over... What do all the students now have is a lot of free time.. Im sure many have been waiting for this darn holiday.. i know i have.. ive been "planning" this holiday since SPM.. i told myself "if i start in January u got more than 6 months holiday!!".. yea so i traded of starting in June for a later n longer holiday..
i am a terrible time waster.. i did nearly NOTHING productive.. ive been avoiding doing anything of use n substance.. its bad. sighh.. i planned to do so many things.. but planning n executing them are 2 whole different things..
on a side note i realised due to the holidays- ppls blog have grown somewhat.. longer n more tedious to read.. haha..
ill start with Genting trip: here goes.
Started bad- we missed the bus.. u dont know how pissed i was.. hungry n pissed..
i woke up early.. rushed ppl.. called ppl.. i really thank the people who came early but apologize that u had to fork out an extra 17.40 to travel up.. i know its a lot of money.. sighh.. in this holiday i blew SO MUCH MONEY its not even funny.. i mean .. i cant even describe it.. well, i saw it coming tho..
going up genting.. even small things annoyed me.. yes.. i was very easily agitated at that time..
after checking in- the rest of the day was ok- 1 of the room stank n the other was clean.. clearly the inconsiderate gurls wanted to clean room... hahah ..jk.. we ate lunch after that. i was freakinnn famished.. only to find out KFC was so damn expensive there.. actually i already knew but just the sight of that 17.40 on the dinner plate was quite shocking.. not just me.. 1st time i see Sing Huay say "shit!" when he saw the price.. darn funny la!.. haha.. he stilll bought it tho.. i went with the 2 piece.. still expensive..oh well- its a holiday~
Next we wanted to go to the park.. note that outside was very VERY misty.. everybody kept disappearing to go toilet.. we couldnt even gather em to get the wristband for the themepark.. grrr... not too long after we entered the park.. it started to drizzle n most rides were closed.. so we find whatever we could.. the swinger (the chair that goes round n round).. was super funnny.. 1 of the funniest rides ever.. i cant describe the feeling - worried, freezing, laughing, ...cold.. basically my brain was quite spaz.. it started to rain quite heavy.. but once it started to "swing" i was all wet..i switched my "stance" from opening my arms wide to protecting my face.. giant raindrops smashing ur face aint fun.. laughed like hell tho.. all the time thinking of 2 things:
- i only have this pants
- what the hell are we doing here in the rain..
oh well.. went to the gents to dry myself under the hand dryer till a line forming forced me to move aside..
rest of the day spent hanging around the park.. i really wanted to ride the solero shot/space shot again.. or the corkscrew but it was closed.. what a pity.. the 2 highlights of the park.. sighh..
those that didnt go - U WUSS! its like going to KFC n eating fish burger.. erghh..
im sure those who went enjoyed the feeling of weightlessness... or of puking out their intestines.. =)
dinner included birthday. i had a budget meal. i just realised that WE DIDNT TREAT THE BIRTHDAY BABIES.. i dont know why but we shudve.. oh well.. we cut cake n sang.. i made sure i shouted their names loud enuff.. heh.. nobodies face was destroyed with cream tho..
night was filled with arcade n NO CLUBBING.. awww... i was quite angry so arcade was fine.. then we walked allot.. now id like to take this opportunity to say nirmal, u have a hide of a yak.. i have no idea how u stand the cold but ure crazy.. its a compliment.. hehheh.. :p
night ended with taboo, drunken talking n terrible sleep (sry guys)..
ps- ben n jak jak was like 1.5 cm apart.. face 2 face.. darn funny.. if only i had camera..
ok lazy already.. ended with us just waiting for the bus to come.. i got quite upset over something... angry furious thoughts kicked in.. but quickily i brushed the aside.. n yes- the 2 of them did cry.. i didnt lie but i didnt wanna embarrass them at that time either.. how touching.. im missing all their crazy company already.. i wonder how we could stay intouch..
slept all the way home..

how do people know if ure actually angry or sad if u dont say or show it?
how many people have actually seen me lash out? not many.
is it patience? the power to suppress feelings?
how many have taken advantage of this? enough to make one angry.
is it a good thing-to suppress. yes.
"it is not what u say but what u do that defines u." sighh.. just with that n i feel like trash.

the power of words

Today i learnt NOTHING about the power of words.. however, i did learn something- im starting to miss college..no not the stupid building (which btw is nice)... the friends.. i was never REAL close to anyone in college.. like "real tight".. that is usually how i am.. even in high school i always kept people at a certain distance.. i was only close to 1 person, (well... 2..) who later switched school n i was quite sad.. its stupid.. a guy who misses another guys company is labeled gay.. a gurl that misses another gurlfriend is labeled "good friends".. anyway..as i was saying - my nature-to NOT get close.. because when someone knows too much about it.. it makes u vulnerable.. and somehow having a gf kinda fulfills that void of closeness that all people, whether subtly or not,(i assume) desires.. u might deny it saying " I DONT NEED ANYBODY.. INDEPENDANTT N STRONGG".. but reality is people need people.. (n also God.. :p ).. this bad habit i have is actually very protective.. this way i never get "hurt.." cept by of coz... well.. her.. but its ok.

i read cassie's blog once awhile i often feel the urge to reply.. but i end up not posting. Because i dont really want other people to see what i wrote. thats why blogging is NOT my cup of tea. anonymous blogging however might be fun.. but then who the heck would read ur blog? unless u fill it with pictures of "hot chics" n type in "hot, gurl, sex" in ur post so the 10982371098273019283 ppl searching for pron would actually click on ur blog n be disappointed that there is hardly anything arousing in it. but scam 1 person once n u get 10982371098273019283 amount of hits.. yes, u might be thinking "hey thats more hits than there are people in this world".. well whatever einstein, my exams are over.. my brain is resting.

yerpp.. deviation, sidetracking, n nonsense is my specialty. at 3.30am, its as good as me blogging when im drunk. i think ill "tembak" some people since nobody ever reads this blog (cept the machine) n i never really advertise or tell anyone bout it so it'll pretty much be kept in the dark for....ever.. hehe.. no harm i suppose.. (maybe if i wrote in points i would be more focused... or maybe if i were more awake)
- gurls like to complain about how terrible guys are
- those are usually the ones that love/d guys.. oh what hypocritical critters u are..
- or pms n they just think everyone/thing, living or not, is terrible...
- oh yes thats right- i use pms against u.
- i need to shop for shoes n i have no money.. dad doesnt wanna give me allowance.
- after my exams, immediately i was listed a list of things i had to do before this weekend.. sucks..
- i have to help my parents teach cause dad fired a teacher (which happens to be my uncle).. n my dad said "ill pay u" (which most prob is a semi-lie. which means he will pay if u bug him to n said "but u SAID u WOULD") its the perfect plan, i would never take money from my parents.. after all they did feed me, bring me up, give me a roof 2 live under, n about to sponsor me to study medicine WHICH IS FREAKING DAMN BLOODY EXPENSIVE... to take their money would be... a crime in itself... sighh..
- to the machine: stop thinking u are not good enough or ill kick u in the nuts. guys are asses by nature.. some excel more than others earning the title jerk(ass).

im beginning to think that my life is not eventful enough to be blogged about..unless u wanna read " i applied to 2 universities today, went n "make" bank draft, going to 2 banks n figured out that Maybank>RHB.. i thought i lost my handphone n make my heart pump frantically.. came home.. had to go church for meeting.. felt like a business plan.. went mamak ate roti canai n teh tarik.. chit chat.. went home.. played comp.. chatted... " no drama, action, death, juiciness, comdey- just mundane normal LIFE... awwww.. how disappointing..

i realise i have nothing 2 wear this saturday... stupid ball.. i thought it was a grad WITHOUT dinner all the while.. sighhs.. cassie help me advertise my blog by linking it to urs with the title "thebestdamnthingueverclicked"... sure they'll call u liar.. sure they'll hunt u down.. but thats what friendship is all about.. sacrifices... i think my next post will be called "lies".. oh so many ideas, so little time.. i am about to execute my biggest lie.. i have not finished my elaborate plans but it actually kills the soul when u do.. lying is addictive.. the more u lie.. the more u will be immune to the guilt n u WILL lie more.. even for shit u dont need to lie about..

ah well.. here it is, something title-related: im sure u know the power of words- to bless,to condemn, to discourage or encourage, to communicate - ur love, hurt, anger. to show off.. ur calm- ur cool, to rub in other peoples faces ur A in GP.. grrr.. brag,compliment n of cause kill... "killing me softly with his wordss.. killing me softlyyy .. with hissss wordss.." ... ahh how it sucks to be killed by words.. n how would words kill u if they mean nothing to u? ahh.. now u see why i "defend" myself..
"sticks n stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me.."
thats one cold heart wuss..
sigh...*zzzzzz*

i spy.....

i now have a blog.. yes.. its because i crave the attention... i want millions of hits.. i wanna be a famous... the truth? today i went to check on what the machine replied to my comment on her blog. While i skim through her blog (using my newly acquired skill, learnt solely for IELTS) i manage to catch a glimpse of "i found your blog the sarcastic. i grinned. its always fun to find out what kind of blogs different people have. i was intrigued, what would a blog of the cynical/extremely sarcastic(funny sheet btw) S.A. look like. but wait! no link!!! arghh.. so like all stalkers, i used my google skills to locate her blog. heh3.. its like prying into someones private life without their permission.. at least to me- im easily amused. again, skimming through the sarcastic's blog, i came upon GP-is-my-fav's blog. Wow, talk about fun :) cheap thrills.. ahhh.. never cease to amuse me.
Thats when i realise, im the only one without a blog! Well, not anymore! IN YOUR FACE SOCIETY! mike -1, world- zilch. victorahhhhh...
now as i listen to the foo fighters terrible album, i begin to visualise the millions of homework which i lazily accumulated. demoralizing. Back to foo fighters, i downloaded the whole album when i actually just wanted "best of me" (coz that song freagin rocks). i expected the other songs to be at least tolerable. surprise! most of it sucks.. just bcause ure foo fighters doesnt mean u can slam the electric guitar, shout and pass it as a song. n that damn over enthusiastic drummer.. grrr. tho 20 songs in an album is a steal, if u actually buy it.

recap of significant incidence in the last 7 days. (or as far back as i can remember)
thursday - Stress and fear of Ielts, laziness vs ielts practice- ielts win.
friday- argued with significant other-distrupts focus. slept late.
saturday- Ielts itself-panic mind turned eraser into sneakers bar. followed by extreme cold exam conditions,fast 4 hours,finally-relieved. Trashed someone in a game. bask in glory of total victory.
(switches to John mayer- continuum.. soothing n funky.. love it)
sunday- woke up late, went service late, changed my guitar strings.. mmmm fresh sound of resonancing brass.. hahaha .. love it..
monday- funny occurance-seperated lunch
tuesday- walk till leg hurt in mall searching for mythical item- aka something that satisfies a gurl.
gtg game- damn it. im wasting my time on useless activities